Commitment Ahead

I can't put a finger on it, but I do believe I am having commitment issue. I went through a similar life experience a couple of months before marrying the love of my life. I don't want the date to come, and at the same time, I can't wait to begin. I supposed I should warn the reader that this post may not make sense since I am just typing what is pouring out of my head. I will not edit this post. I want to be able to come back and see how unstable my mind state was before ordination. By the way, take a look to the right. That's how many days are left. It's getting closer, and scarier. Well, I am not scare of the day. I am apprehensive, however, of the hours and days after. There's the homily to prepare, movements and lines to memorized, and worst of all, trying to say the right thing at the right time, especially personal blessings. Jesus, Mary, Joseph. Help me.